I got some disappointing news last Monday,
I don't want to go into details yet but
I wasn't broken hearted about it, it just shook me up a bit.
Today, I received heart crushing and dream splattering news
And found myself balling my eyes out in front of a stranger.
I'm crushed and discouraged and angry and embarrassed and confused.
I don't know what the next step should be.
I don't even know if I should make a next step.
Honestly, I'm starting to question myself and how unshakeable my faith is.
I'm starting to question what Gods will for me is and if I missed out on it.
Which is a terrifying feeling I might add.
If Gods will is to be done then why do people miss out on it?
That doesn't make sense to me.
I keep thinking,
"Ok God, you made your point. Now fix it. K?"
And I also know that God can handle a little 20 year old girls anger and frustration.
He isn't going to lose any sleep over it.
My thoughts right now are what's next?
I've been through too much garbage to just give up.
I've been known to overcome a few obstacles,
And I also know how to make the best of what I've been given.
This blog post is sad, messy, it has a weird ending, and I'll probably get asked what's going on.
I feel like a tease.
Not sorry.
"If our God is for us, then who could ever stop us?"
